He met me in a awkward stage in my life Getting a divorce Living on my own Finding out who I am Am I Dom Am I Nikki Or am I Dominique? I am in a awkward stage I am learning my likes, dislikes What I like to eat What I like to do for fun How I want to dress Who I want to associate myself with When it was okay to say yes and when I should say no What’s my type? What SHOULDN’T be my type I had to ask myself was I ready to have sex again He met me when I didn’t know these things I didn’t know if I WANTED to start dating Let alone know what that really was I didn’t know if I just wanted hookups Someone to take me out Someone to tell me I’m pretty and rub my booty What I KNOW I needed was a friend I needed someone to listen I needed positive energy I needed those hugs To rub my back To kiss my forehead Call me babygirl AND from time to time rub my booty When he met me I was still healing Fighting my demons Fighting this LACK of self-esteem I told him I had a cold heart I showed him I did I blocked out love Felt like I DIDN’T NEED it Didn’t want it He seen the broken little girl that hides inside I let him see her I still closed up I am in a awkward stage in my life where I am still learning life I am learning who I am and what I like This awkward stage in my life where I am learning to enjoy MY OWN company Also, i miss company of others When met him I wasn’t supposed to like him Wasn’t supposed to enjoy his company Wasn’t supposed to crave his touch I wanted to be COLD, to prove that I didn’t need it This awkward stage in my life, I WAS lying to myself I don’t want you to fix me, I want you by my side while I fix myself. DiaryofDom

Beat my face

NOUN: cosmetics such as lipstick or powder applied to the face, used to enhance or alter the appearance She wears it to hide herself She wears it to transform herself She wears it to make herself feel better It is her security blanket Not too much not too little Just enough to get you to look To stare in awe To speak to me She beats her face Makeup makes her feel sexy Like she can have anyone she wants She can make anyone look at her People see the gold around her eyes, which makes them look inviting They are saying: become my friend My lover My confidant She wears it confidently She wears it as a sex symblel She knows who will look, who will stare who will want to talk to her She knows how her eyes will keep them locked in How her lips will look tasty How her cheeks will look warm and soft But her insecurities will be hidden behind her makeup Her makeup will hide her hurt behind her eyes Her makeup will hide how life has torn her down The disappointment she went through Her makeup will hide how she wakes up every day, puts a smile on her face Tells herself she will be okay If you look hard enough you will see the story she is telling She wants her makeup to say she is sexy She is a badass She is fearless She has confidence SHe oozes sex appeal Her makeup is her superpower Her makeup transformers her into the woman she wishes to be Her makeup goes with her mood With her clothes Her makeup goes well with her jewelry She knows they go hand in hand Her eyes Her lips Her cheeks Her attitude They work as a team Showing you what she wants you to see Can you see it? Soft not aggressive Quiet but speaks volumes She never over does it Oh no, never too much Just enough so you see her DiaryofDom

Dom, nothing simple about that

Don’t expect more from me then I am willing to give I’m problematic I am stressful I have high expectations I give you what I think you deserve I give you my time as a treat When YOU THINK YOU deserve more, I pull back on my treats I am a gift to you My affection Acknowledgment Those are things you have to earn My time with you should be treated like a blessing I am in a stage in my life where your energy is useful or harmful I am going to feed off you You will do the same We are not going to put things in our body that is harmful Things that will make us feel bad? Make us sick? Your energy is fuel Are you going to satisfy my soul? I am looking for people who will add to my dreams and hopes Not my nightmares Not my fears Nor my demons I am still finding myself I am still trying to understand who I am I am finding happiness in myself Not from a noun I need you to understand that I am a complex creature I have traumas that I am working out Triggers Insecurities I have demons that haunt me Rocking with me, you will see some I will share some of them with you if I feel like you can handle them I am not trying to bring my traumas into serious relationships I am not looking for someone to save me I am not looking for anyone to fix me I am not looking for anyone to solve me I am looking for a friend to be by my side Someone I can cook with Laugh with Walk around Target with Someone to tell me I am pretty Someone to tell me my booty look good You know, simple things If you not ready to ride on my ship I am throwing you over board DiaryofDom


Raw “The more accepting we are of simply being human, the easier it is for us to accept our emotions and others, too. When we find love in ourselves and project it out into the universe and those around us, that’s being raw. Discover who you are as a person and share it with others fearlessly”. Dom Nikki D DP Succubus Coffee love Wine adventurer Dominique I go by many names Whatever you in the mood for I say what I want I do what I like I don’t care what you have to say I don’t care what you think In this state in my life I am learning to love the skin I am in I am loving who I am becoming as a whole I am embracing my looks My body My moods My habits While forming new ones Don’t mistaken I am a very sweet, nice person I love people I would do whatever I can for you But, I can be cut throat As I am changing, I am wearing my heart on my sleeve I am showing my likes and dislikes I am more raw Each of my tattoos are either a word or symbols Japanese: live, laugh, love Love, peace, serenity Coffee cup Semicolon w/cross Eagle Plain cross Wine glass w/half woman face 20 piercings I don’t believe in falling in love I believe you love someone or you don’t I will never give a man my whole heart again I have no plans on getting married again I am not into impressing anyone for likes or attention I am not here to fit in I love to stand out I like not fitting into a group, I want to make my own group What makes me the same as others is that I bleed red I have feelings I hurt I like to hang out I like to eat I like to laugh I miss smiling under these darn mask My favorite nail polish is navy blue and black I love black I am a Goth I am a girly girl I drink UNGODLY amounts of coffee I love my wine I have a crazy amount of sex appel I’m indifferent on pain, I don’t hate it but only enjoy it in small doses It makes me feel alive, human, less numb My best friend is my ex husband I can’t bake But I am one hell of a cook I share a lot but still never enough My goal is to always be a true and real with myself, so I can give that to others Do you get that feeling like you are not enough for people but yet too much? I feel like I get too real for people I give people so much of my emotions I can only be me Raw Real Truthful Unapologetically DiaryofDom

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