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Compromise too much?

Compromise too much?


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Compromise:

noun

an agreement or a settlement of a dispute that is reached by each side making concessions.

2. Accept standards that are lower than is desirable.

I, Dom, have <a href=”https://amzn.to/2YhlYUo&#8221; target=”_blank” rel=”noopener noreferrer”>compromised</a> so much in my life, I have forgotten who I am.

In relationships

In my religion

In friendships

In my career/work

I have always put “that, him, her, this” before my own.

I try to fit into everyone’s way of life and thinking, that I have no voice of my own

No thought of my own

No ideas that are mine

I understand that compromising is a part of life in most things

I am fully aware

But…

When I start to lose my sense of self, the things that make me: me, the things that add to my personality, then I have compromised too much.

I have always bent the rules when it comes to religion

Compromising with God!?

Yeah, it’s wrong.

I had a friendship many moons ago that had given up because I didn’t want to live the type of lifestyle she had. I was already doing what she was doing, dressing the way she dresses and talked the way she talked

I wanted something different

She didn’t

Friendship ended

I had compromised years with her, she didn’t for me.

I knew I shouldn’t have taken that job that I would hate and the pay was low

I did anyways, a job is a job right??

Five years I gave my blood, sweat and tears

A little of my sanity went with it.

Great going Dom

Relationships

Lord, knows this is a book waiting to be finished.

We all have compromised our self for our mate

Of course you have

I have

I have always been more attracted to darker, plump, tall men

Neither one of my husbands are those

Said I would never kiss a smoker

Did that

I was shocked I didn’t mind at all

I have fried, dyed, cut, my hair for my man more times then a girl should

I have given up my favorite foods because he don’t like them

Cut friends off because he didn’t like them

I always said I would never give my man another chance after he cheated

Two husbands later….

Five damn times…

I said I would never give so much of myself that I would lose who I really am.

Let’s just say all I really know about myself at this point is that I like wine, chocolate, books, and coffee.

And that I am never compromising shit else.

DiaryofDom

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