Adjective: Poisonous

I was told I was ” target=”_blank”>toxic
I didn’t know how to take this word when I first heard it
toxic is a bad thing and no one wants it

No one wants it
Or no one wants me

There is no way toxic can be something good
No one wants something that is toxic
No one wants a friend that is toxic
Or relationship
Or job

My thoughts are toxic
My moods are toxic
My attitudes are toxic

I want to be different
I want to be someone who brings joy in your life
I want to be someone who brings a smile to your face

I have been told I am hard to love
Hard to love?
I have never heard that before
I always thought I was a uncomplicated woman
I wanted simple things in life
I want to be simply loved
How is that hard to understand?

Am I hard to love because I wanted loyalty? Or someone who is trustworthy?
Or what about someone to show me time and affection?
Does that sound like someone who is hard to love?

So now I am toxic and hard to love
Women are simple yet complex creators.
I am a simple yet complex woman
I don’t want you to build me a rocket ship and fly me to the moon
Hell, I don’t even ask you to make me a sandwich!
Give me your time, loyalty, honesty, and patience.

I am toxic because I guess I am asking for too much.


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