Mental Awareness for Women Part One

This is something that has been on my mind for the longest. I feel like this is a battle that black women, all women but mostly for the black women. I know being a woman is the hardest thing that we do. Being a black woman is the toughest thing I have to go thru I am constantly being judged Belittled Told I am not enough Feeling like I can never do anything The world hates my skin But loves what’s between my legs The world doesn’t care about my heart But loves our type of cooking I am always fighting with demons Telling me that I am ugly My hair is nappy Iā€™m fat My dreams won’t manifest That I am a failure That I am weak We fight with ourselves so much that we can’t hear the good talking to us Those little voices telling us we can do it If we push a little more we can make it We fight depression Self love Self worth They say we are suppose to look a certain way to be accepted Which is?? Why can’t my afro look like a tree? Why do I have to shave my armpits? Why do I have to talk a certain way? It’s so hard to be a woman It’s even harder to be a black woman For me, I fight that I will be enough I fight with my own self love I fight that I become successful enough where I don’t have to live check to check I want to stop telling myself I want make it to corporate because I am a woman I won’t make it because I am a black woman I fight with telling myself I am not strong enough for this world My skin isn’t thick enough My vocabulary isn’t big enough My voice isn’t going to be heard I beat myself up that I didn’t get my degrees sooner That I should have waited to get married That I should have been heavier in church People need to understand mental stability is the number killer for woman Women are at least twice as likely to experience an episode of major depression as men, Richards reports. And, compared to their Caucasian counterparts, African-American women are only half as likely to seek help. We have a million things to think about everyday Kids Groceries Money Home Car Doctor appts The world isn’t kind to us at all Men aren’t kind to us Women hate us because they want to be us I have cared for so many people in my life, I forgot to care about myself I have been fighting so many other people’s demon’s I forgot to fight my own I care about other people’s mental state that I forget my own I can’t remember the last time someone asked me how am I truly doing I forgot how to truly smile for myself when I been smiling for other people for so long Every week I ask myself, how am I feeling today? I need to check my own self from time to time I need to make sure I am okay I want to smile and not feel pain Remember, we fight battles no one ones about, every minute of everyday. DiaryofDom

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